Got into an argument with an old friend the other night who told me I’m not person she used to know. It stemmed from a convo where she felt I’ve lost my positive outlook on life. I was trying to explain that I am positive in every aspect of MY life.
My energy, my focus, my passion, is always positive, but when it comes to other people I feel I maintain a neutral mindset. I was trying to breakdown the difference between 3 things. Being positive, being negative, and being realistic; And mind you remember this is pertaining to other people not how you influence your own life. I see the good and the bad in every person and every decision. It’s one thing to walk about life thinking every person is good and being naive in all situations.
Just because I don’t say everything is going to be “Ok”. Or “just be happy and it will work out” doesn’t mean I’m a negative person. I’m also not indifferent because I always analyze both sides of the coin. That doesn’t make me negative or positive. It makes me conscious and sympathetic to all situations. I stay neutral and balanced at all times which is a main philosophy of many teachings. I’ve learned to focus my energy on things that I can control. As in myself. If I tried to make every single person happy I’d go crazy. That’s the old me.
I’ve learned that being a positive person for yourself makes a bigger influence on people then patting them on the back. Your good vibes radiate to people. Not a text message with a Buddha quote. While that helps certain people. It also alienates others.One thing that can never alienate is a person seeing you and wishing they could be as happy as you… That’s how you change the world…
I miss this messy room, that flutter in my heart, my long strawberry blonde hair, and those almost there abs
*This time last year*
Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe.